Rules and Sign Ups

Bring that up to Crow.

I thought it would be a neat way to have like Mercia or someone step in and try to talk Morgan into working for her when she's at her lowest.

But well its not within his plans so screw you X.

Fine then do whatever you want Crow because at this point I am beyond caring about some stupid game with fake non existing people.

But well again I am the bad guy which is fine because I should know better. Should just keep my feelings to myself and I thought I was doing Crow a favor because he hates my character which is fine because I grown to dispise her to.

But whatever Crow made his decision and well he didn't kick me out.

I quit this absoulte abomination of a game that was ruined and Kitty should have never abandoned.

Can someone please explain to me in detail what exactly is going on here? And why we just lost mustard? I would generally say it's none of my business, but Yoshi is my friend and I want to know what lead here.  Reading the posts leading up to it doesn't explain.

Yup and Kitty did nothing wrong Crow. Kitty had nothing to do with a character getting killed.

No you act like it was only on me that had something to do with a character getting killed.

Okay so I wanted to talk to dragon that's fine. I wanted to talk abput it thats it thats all.

But you completely ignore the fact that Just action lead directly to the fight. Hell Mercia even warned us not to fight but Kitty FUCKING suckered punch the dragon. Kitty started the fight but you completly ignore that fact. So instead of having each and everyone us share in the blame you just throw it all on me and Kitty gets two fucking ranks out of it.

If kitty is being punished I don't see it. I don't see Digi yelling at Just for fucking up the chance of getting a the best ending. I dont see others making Levi to be an emotional time bomb. No you threw it all on me. That's what I am mad about.

Hell even Pielover doesn't suffer anything of note. You think Pie cares he set all of this into motion of course not. He's doesn't give a fuck at all. But its fine its all on me Crow and I even said and dropped numerous hints that hey my character is feeling really bad and hey your going to find out let me just tell you.

If i wanted to serousily kill off my character why did I attempt to reach out to friends or have the meltdown in front of two people. You know someone who normally be like hey you cant just do thst and make someone do that.

Thst the fact Just is to you like GX is to Neo. Someone we can't touch because OMG he's kitty how dare we bad mouth Just.

I am pissed because 100% of the blame is being directed at me. I am mad that Kitty gets away with this whole incident scot free and he doesn't have to answer for anything. I am mad because I notice how you treat Kitty better then the rest pf us.

To further clarify, this was going to be your chance to retire Morgan and start a new character in a few days. But not now. I just can't bring myself to have a player who I know thinks the story's an abomination.

Yeah your done and you had enough.

Like I said I was never really going to kill off Morgan that's what you fail to hear me say. Okay it was heat of the fucking moment and I was upset. But in the end it would have reverted to her crying herself to sleep. But of course you have no confidence in me which is fine. I don't have any confidence in myself when it comes to any of this shit.

Why did you think I gave up on all my Verse and Vitcon stuff because I am a failure of an author.

Again that first sentence about Levi explains everything I need to know. Like I said I was ready to leave but when the equivalent of a FUCKING BOSS FIGHT HAPPENS well those you usually don't run away from.

Like I said you did a dam good job of making me feel really responsible for ruining this game so thank you. You know dam well I have a guilty complex IRL and half the shit I done I don't think I deserve so thank you for reminding me.

Also when I try to post what I think are meaningful remarks and posts I put thought into and I get like one word responses well it feels like a slap in the face.

Oh and excuse my tone but when I feel disrespected I respond with that. So yeah its fine if that's how you really feel about me then fine I finally know the truth about how you feel. If you want to give me the silent treatment like you did before fine. Like I said I been through this shit before where I met so many people in my life and then they are just gone. So if you never ever want to talk to me That's perfectly fine. Wouldn't be the first person that I never wanted to talk to.

If you want to try and talk then I am at the Verse. We can talk there if you really want to try or care.

But you want to throw words like Cruel, heartless, and those fucking words. You don't know the first thing about me you son of a bitch if you can so casusally throw those words at me like that. You have no fucking idea what the fuck I been through. You have no idea who the fuck I am. I told all of you all the shit I been through. I told most of you what I went through each and every day. I fucking told you how I had really bad depression and how I struggled with that shit all of my life.

If that's what you fucking think about me then you really have no fucking idea who the fuck I am. You have no fucking clue that I am one of the most caring and giving people around. You have no fucking idea that I am one of the most caring and nicest people around.

Yes some of that comes through in my characters like say Morgan. Yes she has a guilty complex and she feels completely alone. She feels useless and feels like people are better off without her.

Honestly Crow if that's how you feel about me then fuck it. I have my answer and I know exactly where i stand with you.

I don't know how to fix this.

I overreacted. Even after I stopped myself from really overreacting, it was still an overreaction. And it's not like I can't emphasize with being passionate about this sort of thing. I guess I should even take it as a compliment. But it also just tore open several points I've been self-conscious about and some I'm even trying to improve but still... After the stuff with some other things, a lot of which I caused, I just don't have the confidence to deal with this.

I need help. Advice? I don't know. Something.